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This is what the last post was supposed to look like:

I had the kids tonight. After dinner we were playing and I get a text from my W.

Are the kids OK?

Now I'm sitting there thinking, of course they're ok. So I send a text back. They're fine. Did something happen?

She sends back - A friend of mind died today.

Me - I'm sorry to hear that. (My first thought was to text back something like, Why are you telling me this? That's your personal life and has nothing to do with mine, or something similar to that. But I just can't be cruel - and that's a good thing)

Me - The kids are good. Playing. Getting ready to take showers.

About 15 minutes later she sends back: Thanks.

That's it. Kinda weird exchange by her. I thought about texting more, you know, Hope you're ok, etc... But I quickly got over it. The fact is I didn't feel like texting anything else. She has her support group and her OM. Not even sure why she would even tell me. I know I wouldn't if it was me. If she was looking for sympathy or something she was turning to the wrong person.

I just don't have it in me. She managed to crush all of it by her behavior this past 2 and a half years. Just blank...nothing there to offer her. Maybe one day it will be different, but for now, it's an empty tank and I have no desire to even fake it.

The thought did cross my mind - Wonder if it was the OM. The kids have met him. My mind even jumped around to different thoughts but that only lasted a couple minutes then returned back to normal. It's nice when stuff doesn't get swirled in the head and bounce around for hours or even days. So much more peace in my life.

I just went about the night and got everything done and put the kids to bed.

Everything else was normal every day groundhog day stuff...