On thin ice with WAW

[HopelessInLove]

I posted on newcomers thread a while back.

I have read the DB, DR and N.U.T.s books.

My situation has been up and down since I walked out, or my wife wanting me out.

I have been using the DB coach. she has helped me to stay positive. I have goals set up and I always trying to look at them and DB.

Two days ago W and I sat down and discussed the kids and what I would be doing with them over the next couple of days and weekends. W was receptive and talked.

Last night we got into a discussion and it lead into our M. She has been talking a little more open lately. She has been unhappy for years and baically is blaming me for it. She said she did not know how to think of me differently and almost is unwilling to try. She has been feeling better with me out of the house, more relaxed. Though she did say that she was upset that I am acting totally different then I did before, more relaxed and happier. I did not tell her that is what I am working on.

We were talking about a picnic where I was going to take the kids and I asked if she would be interested in going. She stated she would like to be there to support me, but was worried about the dynamic of it and if I was going to introduce her as my W. I asked her what she felt was appropriate. She did agree to go with me.

I also asked her if we could just hang out so that we could be more comfortable around each other for the kids sake. She was going to let me know.

Before the conversations were through she did mention that she has been thinking of calling a L to see what the big D or legal Separation would entail. But she does not want to do that yet.

This got me really down, and I have been in Hell all day.

HopelessInLove