Hey D4ML, you must have gotten this in before I typed up mine--thanks SO MUCH. I am not going anywhere, I am not going to lose sight of WHO I WANT TO BE gosh darn it!!
Unfortunately I have used my H as our "doctor" as he took care of the sniffles, etc, for years. I am scared to tell him about this, as he may try to use it against me. ALL I need to do is tell him I'm on some sort of anti depressant and he will be ALL over that.
What I am going to try to do is exercise more--I haven't been keeping it up at ALL and I think this is my downfall. So I will be doing my tapes, taking a nice long walk (the weather! it's GORGEOUS!!), do some praying, and see if that doesn't help.
I don't even know how to go into a dr's office and ask for this stuff from a totally strange Dr. I guess if it gets to that point, I will have to do that!
I have to read my favorite book again--Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor Frankl. How he saw in the concentration camps the absolute worst cases of human greed and selfishness, and then he saw people who kept their dignity and stayed true to who THEY wanted to be under the worst possible circumstances. People who would rather die than stoop to these levels. And how they were the "heroes" in the end.
When you have nothing, you still have everything--your ability to choose who you want to be.
