It does seem interesting that she starts school again and he might come home. I spoke with a db coach this morning. Very helpful and just what I needed. He said I need to stop worrying about making h mad. He's going to get mad if he wants to and that I just shouldn't engage him in this. He assured me that I need to live my life the way I want to and not worry about what the h does or says. I know this but it is hard. So hard when the h does whatever he can to try and provoke me into a fight. So I am going to stay on my path to just being Nicole. I did talk with the db coach about if he comes back. He said that I need to be clear with h that he can home but he needs to want to win me back. To do that he will have to do a few things to begin earning back my trust. These aren't demands or ultimatums. They are things that I need in order to feel that this roller coaster is going to stop. He doesn't have to do them. BUT if he chooses not to then he cannot come home. Simple as that. This is a boundary I am going to have to set.
I'm ready for the day and all it has to offer
M 35, husband 35 M 10 Limbo 9/2009-12/2010 he left for his moms and came home way to many times to count Home 12/2010-present
