Romeo...
You are worrying way too much about double meanings, what she thinks, what she wants, whether she is being coached, etc. Most of it doesn't matter anyway.

And you are taking everything she says and does personally, as an attack on you. Guess what... it's almost certainly not. She is coping with things (many of her own doing), and just trying to get through the day, just like you are.

Detach. Detach. Detach.