Need some encouragement

[kissak]

(((Kissak)))
You ARE strong and you will make it through this.

Thank you Upside. I dont really feel that way today. I keep having waves of doubt. One minute I feel strong and ready for anything, the next I feel like crawling under a rock and crying the day away.

I have been seriously considering talking to him this weekend. I keep fighting with myself on whether to act ok with things or just tell him exactly what I think! I dont know what will make me feel better...probably the latter at first.

I hate going through this again. I hate that my kids will have to go through it. I know my son is going to be devastated. My daughter will probably just go with it. She is old enough now that she has her own opinion of her dad. Both of my kids depend on me and always come to me with their problems. My H asked me one day why they always go to me and not him. I think its because they trust me. Its sad they cant do that with their dad. I hate to think about how this is going to affect them when they grow up. Will my son go through his own MLC? Will my daughter ever be able to trust a man? So many questions and thoughts. I will try my best to give them the best! I do fear that this will make them push their dad away. Im afraid my daugther will go back to pulling her hair again. She has come so far with that I really dont want her to go back. How to deal with my H and any women he may bring into their lives. He see's nothing wrong with it. They will need time to heal. He doesnt get it.


So much to think about.