I'm very sorry you are going through such a tough time. I understand completely. I thought I was completely through the tunnel and them BAM! back on the rollercoaster, and the lows are SOOOO LOOWW. You can't get the idiot to turn off the movie that keeps playing in your brain day and night.
First, if you aren't sleeping, see your doctor. You can't be there for your son if you are a zombie.
Second, start detaching. Go as dark and get as far away as you possibly can, mentally if not physically. It's the only band-aide I've found that works. And that Band-aide scrapes off sometimes. Anger reopens the wound and here we go again.
Third, and most importantly, TAKE CARE OF YOU. No matter how much we love our spouses, and how they've 'taken care' of us, at the end of the day, all we have is ourselves.
