Because I think to the outside world - including my H - it appears that I am pathetic / while he is running around as "mr bachelor" - I am "pretending" to be married. I know who I am and what I believe - it just goes against a lot of my friends and family's understandings or beliefs. Too traditional for most of them.
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
