Partner left after 9 yrs - reconciled now married!

[AliSuddenly]

Well, we had our IUI.. it was.. painful !! I think the clinic mistimed it slightly from knowing my own cycle and the research I have done, which whilst is not a disaster, would effectively cut our chances down :sad:

H still has some issues around libido. He insists its not me, he does have passion for me and thinks I am gorgeous.. but he cant explain why he isnt often s*xual with me, or want it as often as I know men should (from ex bf's). I wonder if its guilt. He finds it very hard to talk about, takes it as a critiscism perhaps.. and said he feels like he is 'letting me down'. He is very reassuring and insists its NOT me and it upsets him that I keep wondering if it is and we do ML regularly, but it feels an effort sometimes. It makes me wonder if he was like that with Helen..or not, how often they did it and it makes me feel jealous and frankly a little insecure, despite his reassurances. Actions speak louder than words, right. I cant pile that on him too as I dont want him to cave altogether.. we have baby making to do afterall !