# 72 - Could be better, could be worse...

[AliSuddenly]

Yes, I wasnt jealous either, but I am still jealous of him, with, her, back then. I totally agree.

I was amazed at this !!: "He said he understands my position, he puts himself in my shoes, has requested from his boss to consider the possibility of a change in hours and salary and awaits his answer..."

WOW! When is he likely to get that then?

I find it interesting that after the years of coldness/transferance of limerance to someone else and kind of being 'switched off' and unaware.. the WAS comes back and then wierdly gets a taste of their own medicine as you are the one with a 'coolness' but you are not being unaware, you are very aware of the effect it could have on him. I guess its a balancing act. I agree with everyone else, he's really different now, he's really catching up with piecing and making ACTIONS and really listening to you. It all sounds positive sweets.

I could have done that too - been distant at times, cold, mistrustful, because of the way he left. I felt that and still do at times, but like you I watered it down, right down, as my need to get on and make babies overrode my need to express my negative emotions! I guess I was being practical. We still have issues with ML too, him not me, which makes the doubts surface, but I just have to take it on face value when he reassures me its him not me and he does feel passion and desire me.. as you should? Not easy though, huh!