How should I proceed now? Is there hope?

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NCU,
I wanted to add that the discussion you had with your H was not bad DBing. I think you showed your H that you have self-respect and can stand up for yourself and draw healthy boundaries.
When we have low self-esteem to begin with, and then we face a rejection as painful as infedelity, our confidence is rocked to the core. Especially if we have put our spouse on a pedestal.
I recommend you read "The Journey from Abandonment to Healing" by Susan Anderson. I think it can help you understand the way you are feeling, and ways of reclaiming YOU in the face of "rejection".
On cultural specifities, my H is of the same nationality as yours. We were in the middle of an international move last Christmas back to my country when he announced the A. I was pregnant with our first child. He waited to "meet his baby" and has now returned to Europe to live with OW.
Go to Ireland to be with family and friends. It will be good for you, I promise!
Also, on Letting Go, time to read as many posts by Gucci Loafer and Robx as you can.
I think you have a very good chance of saving your M, if you look after You and 'drop the rope'.