Yet the warm feelings about the M return occasionally and I'm left to parse out whether its the marriage (ie companionship) I miss or is it my W.
CNS, I have had to be honest with myself and say that it is both and I think that is okay. I just don't get as down about it as I once used to and I certainly don't focus all of my attention on it either.
Having to see her because of the kids makes it more difficult, however I wonder to myself....if it were not for the kids I might have moved on already.
If we were to reconcile one day will I look back and say that the contact we had to have kept me in the game???? I don't know just food for thought.
How are you doing?
~C
Formerly "missherlove"
Me49 XW49 M17 T19 S16 D20
Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
