Early Parole from the MLC Chain Gang?????

[crushednstuck]

MHL,
I really appreciate your posts, because I'm wrestling with much of the same.

A few pages back you gave a good description of what detachment meant when forced to see your W on a regular basis. Having dependent kids amps the needed discipline to a level I'm not prepared for quite yet. I like the approach for those of us maintaining frequent contact but also attempting to set boundaries.

The LBS cycling is spot on. As is the feeling of being in limbo. I've sold myself my independence by tearing down my image of her and doubting even if I ever loved her to a degree that I would put up with all this crap. Yet the warm feelings about the M return occasionally and I'm left to parse out whether its the marriage (ie companionship) I miss or is it my W.

I'm not sure where my W is in the baking process but I keep opening the oven door - she may never get done and the kitchen keeps getting hotter. I'm tempted to jab her with a toothpick now and then. Hope I didn't crush the analogy.