Dealing with Jealousy

[Nvrgivup]

Not fun at all 450, not at all, ironically as I just saw your response in my iphone while driving home from work, I drove by my old house (unfortunately it is on my route to work) his truck was in the driveway. It took a great deal of restraint not to stop and cause a scene, but I know better (I hope??) as it would solve nothing and in fact just make me look worse. But it does bring up all those gut wrenching feelings again...
I was pissed off when I got home, I took a quick look to make sure my kids were not around and told my brother what happened looking to vent a bit. I guess my kids had heard me come in and were hiding behind the couch to "scare" me lol, they like that game.. unfortunately they heard me tell my bro about the truck being in my driveway. (I try to make sure not to say anything in front of them) what really hurts right now is they immediately started telling me that last week the guy came over to watch a movie with her, and how they both went to their rooms (their choice) and how they felt they couldn't come out. Obvioulsly they are pretty hurt by her actions too. In fact my 14 yr old said that he was going out his window onto the roof to see if the truck was still there, becuase he was hungry and didn't want to come downstairs while the guy was there. it sucks that my kids don't feel free in their own home to get a snack etc. But as I've said she sees nothing wrong with any of her behaviors or what affect it has on anybody else (I get she could give a rats butt about me, but the kids?) I just don't know what to do anymore? other than be a good dad and give them a safe place to be? they have talked at times about staying with me more, and even have stayed an extra week here and there, but I'm starting to wonder if OM is making more of a presence now at the house if they may not decide at some point to just stay with me? Bitter sweet in a way, I would love to have them full time, but I don't want to be seen as punishing her, and even though I'd never ask them to or even encourage them to, if it happened I know I will get the blame for "taking away" her kids. No win