Looking for advice, WAW

[looking2keepmywf]

So, part of my healing process has been talking with my family. My brother already knows of my sitch, and now my sister (who lives nearby) does too. Everyone I've told is just shocked. They all say the same thing - I thought you two were perfect for each other and everything was great. Obviously, they don't see what goes on at home, and see us everyday, but it certainly was a big surprise to everyone who has found out.

She has shown no signs of changing. She did talk to me today about some details of her most ferocious obsession - our baseball team. Went on about so and so hit home runs, etc. Like I care. I like the team, but my mind hasn't been into it lately. Hmm, I wonder why.

I mentioned I told my sister today. I didn't show any signs of being sad. It was here's what's happened, here's what our plan is, I will likely need your help, and in general a good conversation. Last night wasn't so good for me (major sadness), but no one else in the house knew a thing.

I am really working hard to stay steady and positive with the kids, and minimize my interaction with the STBXW, and keep my sad times to myself. Maybe that's not the way I should be handling it, but that's how it's been for the past few days.