Nothing fits

[mishka422]

But I also vote for TALKING to him about it.

And that is the problem.

I've been thinking about that. Why am I scared to talk to him about any of this? You know what? It's not because I'm afraid of him leaving. I'm afraid that I'm going to lay myself bare in front of him and express how I feel about him and he's going to laugh in my face and stammer about this being really fun but he doesn't think of me that way.

More rejection that I just can't handle.

So yeah, that's my fear and it's stopping me from talking to him about anything or expressing myself.