And just so we are clear nobody is coming down on you. At this point though you need to hear things in a direct manner.
I become passionate when I read stories like yours because I have a story like yours. Had I listened I might not have been so emotionally destroyed I became physically ill and was hospitalized multiple times (one of those times was due to my clinical panic disorder that manifested due to stress with my situation so I wasn't talking out of my ass about your panic attacks). Had I listened I might not STILL be dealing with my "H" 36 months later. Had I listened I might not have to wonder if this time around my "H" is even giving me partial truth (LOL! Good one!!).
EVERYBODY would like to see you save your marriage. The only way to do that is to save John first.
