MLC 5 years on

[kissak]

Thanks for starting this thread...it seemed as if everyone was reading my mind and saying whats been going on with me for almost 4 years now.

H has been back and forth so many times. Now after his longest time back, 8 months, its like all his old patterns are coming back. He has made me so miserable the last 6 weeks that I want to leave!

I feel like i made a mistake in letting him come home again. I feel stuck in my thinking. I feel like I have DB for so long, IM stuck there and with someone who will never care for me the way he should.

My H has turned into the immature child. I feel the only thing he does for me and our children is support us financally. Im ready for him to go. I have the feeling that he is trying to make things miserable for me so I will tell him to leave. That way he can lay the blame on me.

Im so tired.