Awww Sweetie...we all need help. I know how you feel, I am one who rarely asks for help because I have heard no so many times. It seems easier sometimes to just do it on my own rather than rely upon someone else, have to either hear no, or a lecture.
But you also should not have to carry the weight of all of this on your shoulders and in your heart. You are not Atlas darlin'...just Michele and doing the best you can (which is phenominal!!!)
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..