Overseas Affair

[2gthrButApart]

I can't go completely dark bc he's paying the household expenses until after I give birth. I spoke to my midwife today and she prescribed me Zoloft. Ive lost another 5 lbs in 2 wks and wake up at all
hours of the night in a panic. I've been waking up nauseous and throwing up a little bit of blood since I discovered his affair Saturday night. He's leaving next month for 14 days to be with her and its killing me. I keep picturing them being physical and it's eating me alive. Of course he wouldn't care, he's leaving when I'm 9 months. He's in love. She won and I lost. My marriage is over. Theres no way to bust it to take the fun out of it. If I bring it up he gets extremely angry. What other options do I have? I believe they've been together at least a yr, could be longer. He has no remorse. He says we aren't together so he's not doing anything wrong. He said he told me 2 yrs ago he wanted out and I should have let him have his divorce. He says had I not checked his phone I wouldn't have known a thing. He feels he didn't have to tell me bc we are separated so its none of my business.

I'm lost.