I haven't looked into ADs yet, though I should. I am in a very deep depression that does NOT go away. This morning I saw my dad and told him "I hate my life. I really do. I hate how it's turned out" and he got upset and told me not to talk like that. But it's true. I do hate my life. I have no idea where to go from here. My self-esteem is low for the first time in my life, I feel inadequate as a woman/wife, I feel unloved, and sad. I thought I had everything: a beautiful home, a hardworking H, financial security and feel I have NOTHING now. I know this is bad but I have actually thought of ending all of this but I know that is not the answer. I just don't know where to go from here. Definitely feel I am regressing in life so much. Every other week it seems someone is getting pregnant or married (of my friends) and here I am getting a D, my H doesn't even want to be married to me (serious blow to me/major rejection) and have a teensy apt. I hate it.
My IC does help but I really just am depressed. Some days are worse than others and today is one of those days.
Not meaning to sound like a downer at all but it's so frustrating, all of this. Grr.
