"i've ignored my gratitude list for a few days. mainly because i just don't believe in the power of a gratitude list. i have lots to be grateful for but it doesn't change the brutal reality of what i have been dealt."
But.. is this not the fatal flaw?
As normal people.. we take things for granted.
He should love you because you are married.
He should love you because of the commitment.
While you are right in sentiment.. you are wrong.
Why do we stop being thankful?
Why do we stop returning the love?
Is it really all the LBS's fault?
"surprisingly, i was talking to my mom and she still feels sad for me and i had to cheer her up. i told her that this was probably a blessing in disguise. i've been a bit more upbeat these days."
Did these words make her feel better?
"my doctor ran some tests on me. i'm okay. no drugs needed. i credit squash for helping me stay healthy. exercise really does keep me happy and the blood flowing."
Being OK.. is so subjective. Healthy.. is good. That is really all the doc could "see" you were.
"life isn't so bad. there is a reason to smile."
To me.. this is the most important thing you said.
The fantastic thing about it is.. you defined "life" a few posts ago.
You are not quite "Retarded" yet. You act like you are. But you don't really live it yet.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
