My New LBS Reality

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No, I promise I haven't checked out on myself. In fact, I think it's quite the opposite. I am becoming a little more comfortable with where I am right now. I had an IC session today and I told her that I believe the only chance I have of having any hope for my M is if I completely detach. I have to be confident enough in myself to give him the room he needs. I told her about my plans to take my kids away this weekend - honor the good times we have had. And there were plenty - this 6'4" man pulling his daughters hair into perfect ballet buns or getting on the floor and playing "pretty, pretty princess" with them - letting them put the jewelry on him. This is the man who existed and whom I loved. I spent a lot of time over the last couple of days re-reading the sermons and stages of MLC, etc. I realized that overall - I am OK. I need to keep working on my self esteem and being more disciplined financially and physically - but I AM working on it. Hearts Blessing posted a story about the LBS being the Lighthouse. Maintaining a calm and stable home - that's what my mission is every day. In order to do that though I have to be calm and stable - and I am getting there.
That's my digging for today:) Thanks for caring enough to ask!