Here's a story...of a very sad lady

[Dagny-2]

It is amazing has physically draining all of this is. I drove the 12 hours back to TN, and unlike the drive the week before where I cried almost the entire time, there were no tears. I had decided that in January I would begin the divorce proceedings. I even told my mother and a few friends. I told H this when I got home, along with some facts about child support and alimony. He got furious with me, shocked that I have done this research and appalled at the amount of money he will have to pay me each month. He said he knew where I stood, I was only after his money. I fired back about how I felt to move down here and find out he was living with another woman. He sputtered a bit, aghast at my accusation, and said that he spent every night in this house. So, maybe he just had sex at her house and slept here. I should feel so much better about that! He stormed out to go see OW and I was left shaking and feeling ill. I am not cut out for these battles.

So, after making this decision, S11 sat on my lap (kids were not around when I had discussion with H) and cried how much he wants mom and dad to get back together. So my resolve melted. How can I just give up when this has such a huge impact on my childrens' life? It is better for them to be in a happy family. Could I ever truly forgive him? I don't know, but am I no better than he if I take the easy way out?

Dagny