What else of your wife's is at your house?

How does she leave the home and take family money and you not have a problem with that? Have you firewalled your finances now?

Do you have a sep agreement in place?

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I love my W, but hated the sich that I was in of not knowing if I was not doing enough, doing the wrong things, or doing too much


Because you were doing things for all the wrong reasons. You were waiting for something to happen, when it did you felt relieved. Your wife is leading you. She even asked for you to take charge.

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She asked me twice in the email if I was okay with her proceeding with the D.


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The idea for using Mediation is so that we can actually see eachother and maybe converse, though I am not sure she wants to do this. She seems pretty head strong having her own attorney. She seems to not want to hurt me and not to see me.


You are going to "converse" at mediation? WTF Dude?!?! Why do you think she doesn't want to hurt you? SHE DOESN"T THINK YOU CAN HANDLE IT!!!

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I don't want a D and would love to work this out but the ship appears to be on a dead end course in that direction.


Don't have that vibe. Have faith yet confront the brutal reality.

Lead. Know your path. Confidence, poise, strength and honor.


M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.