I know I would feel bad and at least say I'm sorry. Guess maybe she's vindictive.
NO.....YOU DON'T KNOW HOW YOU WOULD FEEL! I would have bet the lives of my children that I would have NEVER, EVER done what I did.......
She's being judged and sentenced and she knows that. The LBS comes off as be very self-rightous to the WAS. (I just got through saying this to another poster this morning.) You want her to repent. You want her to be heartbroken with sorrow for what she's done. I understand that, now......but when "I" was the WAW, that wall of resentment toward my H was so high that it took a very long time before I could repent to him. The WAW has to work all of that out in her heart/mind and it is usually not going to be when she's busted.
She will probably be a little vindictive...now, but I'd dare say it is more resentment toward you that she feels.
I hear all these LBS say, "There is NO excuse for an A!" But, did not God tell the man to love his W as Christ loves the Church? I just have my first time to see a woman who is M to the perfect man turn to OM. If the WAW gave her side of the story it still would not grant her permission for an A, but it might be more "understandable" why she was left vulnerable to those conditions. I not talking about your stitch.....but in general.
You are angry. That's good. But, be careful what you do with that anger, okay?
I don't know what to say any more. I'm just numb tbh.
I've sincerely apologized (not recently), written and verbal. Laid every skeleton bone found in my closet out on the table. Nothing left to say or hide. I bared my soul to her. I know I did many things wrong that pushed her to this point. However, she chose the way to go from there.
Yes, I want her to repent and feel sorrow, but I understand that is not going to happen.
She does resent me. Why does she continue to lie though? What's the point? Is it her protecting her feelings, is it a deep character issue, or is just her being vindictive?
Not trying to be stupid, I just can't think of any reason why. It would make more sense for her to blow up tell me everything I wouldn't want to hear, just to hurt me, and then walk away laughing or something. Not continue to lie.
Personally, it's too early to tell, but I think I'm letting go. I just don't feel anything right now. Or is this my wall of resentment building?
