I love my W, but hated the sich that I was in of not knowing if I was not doing enough, doing the wrong things, or doing too much. I did what I thought was right with what I thought I was reading from my W.
I think she has been waiting a long time to tell me that she wanted a D, but was afraid of my reaction since I was prone to show anger in the past. She asked me twice in the email if I was okay with her proceeding with the D. I think I responded the way I should have, which is a 180 for me.
The idea for using Mediation is so that we can actually see eachother and maybe converse, though I am not sure she wants to do this. She seems pretty head strong having her own attorney. She seems to not want to hurt me and not to see me.
I don't want a D and would love to work this out but the ship appears to be on a dead end course in that direction. I will continue with the 180's and following through with GAL and emailing her as planned. Coach, what is your advice this captian needs consel.
