I don't want to mind-read with Mr. A. BUT, I have a hard time asking him questions directly, especially when I'm worried that my questioning will push him away.
So instead of asking him, I'll tell you guys what I'm wondering about now:
1) Why doesn't he make firm plans for our next visit? I'm worried he'll just disappear again.
2) Why did he go back into the "relationship chest"? (That's the hard-to-reach place where he found my journal.) I moved my journal out of there, but it still holds a lot of relationship books. He went back in and left it half open - so surely I would notice! Why did he do that?
3) Why was he distant from me when we last parted? Is it because of something I did (e.g., pushing things too far by texting him that he'd better answer or not bother coming over) or is it just his own mindset of still needing space?
4) Why did he nonetheless leave some stuff over here?
5) Is he basically on the way out again?
And the most important question is for myself: WHY DO I STILL RIDE THIS ROLLERCOASTER?
