He just texted me 'hey. I just wanted to say I miss talking to you about regular stuff' and I said 'i miss it too. I miss my friend'. And he said 'anyway, that was all. Have a good night. And we should definitely play (an online game) together'. (we actually met on a game, years ago...) It feel like he is reaching out and wants to reconnect in a way but I HATE that I see hope in everything. I don't want to feel hopeful then get it thrown down on the ground.

I do know the only way to even try to get him back is to reconnect, and what better way then doing an activity that facilitated us getting together in the first place? I don't know. This is the stuff that drives me crazy. And the reason I love him. When we are friendly it's so nice. Our friendship right now is better than our marriage has been in a long time. Then I get stupid and hurt and say things I shouldn't and read too much into everything.

So, now I ask... His birthday is coming up. Do I get him the game he wants to play with me? Or do I let him prove he wants to and make him buy it himself?


Me 30 H 29
DC 9, 7, 2
M 4 years, T 6 years
ILYBINILWY Bomb: 8/8/10
He doesn't want to work, I'm slowly getting there too
Physically separating end of September