You can't have everything, where would you put it?

[ClingingToHope]

SR, I do love to read, but I haven't found anything lately that really grabbed me. What I really need to do is write. I have two long-term projects that I haven't found the motivation to finish.

That's really surprised me. When we split 17 months ago I thought I'd use the alone time to finish those projects -- and the energy just hasn't been there.

I'm trying. I'm back to rereading the research I'd done before. It's a step.

Sol, the Tuesday night classes are good. Saturday at church I kept running into people I've taken classes with or met through the growth group. One thing I read a long time ago is that the best way to meet someone is to cast a wide net. Do a lot of things and expand my group of friends. I'm pretty happy with how that's going. I don't want to rely on Internet sites.

There is one lady at the table. She's 32 and her husband really screwed her over. Lost his job a couple of years ago. Couldn't find another. Passed his time by blowing all their money on online gambling sites and then left seven weeks ago for North Carolina.

She was forced to file for bankruptcy and divorce. She's very pretty, but of course she's very anti, anti, anti man. I wouldn't even think of talking to her for a year or so.

Things are going well. I'm rolling at work. The money is OK. Nothing new on D front to either bring me down or make me focus on it. Although the lack of action is making me wonder.

I just now got a call from STBXW. Apparently, D8 has a couple of zeros in her file and an F. I have to admit I haven't been checking it every day in the hour that I have them. She's supposed to be doing the homework with the afterschool sitter and STBXW. Apparently, that's not happening.

Of course, rather than say, "I haven't been checking her folder and we need to do a better job," STBXW is going to demand a meeting with the teacher because she's upset with the lack of communication.

Sigh. D8 is in third grade and now has homework. It's our job as parents to stay on top of her. Instead, it sounds as if STBXW is going to go on one of her tirades. Of course, I can't avoid this meeting, but I'll keep my mouth shut. I kept it shut on the phone. Just listening. She doesn't need to know what I'm thinking.

I know, I know. Act as if. Not there yet.