I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

Glad to hear you are doing well, James, medically and emotionally!

Puppy

yep you guys helped me through. I mean everything has totally changed.

I have been consistently spending time with my boys. I've dropped about 30 pounds just by eating right and doing cardio like 3 to 5 times a week.

I have gotten total control over my diabetes. Obtained medical insurance.

I applied for this work from home job for a major computer company. one of my friends is doing it and referred me just waiting to hear back.

I'm happy. I'm glad my ex is no longer here. she taught me what not to do and she was there for me. But it was time for us to move on.

She just didn't want to do right. I was in love with an illusion. An illusion of the potential person she could become and also an illusion of the person she used to be. That person doesnt exist anymore at all.

I held on. I finally let it go. I prayed to god and let it go. I said if me and my ex are meant to be together give me a sign. It never came.

I then wrote down what I wanted in a potential mate on a piece of paper and prayed over it. I dated alot of women. Icannot even lie about 15 to 20

I began to treat the dating game like a job application and i'm the hirer.

I'd screen candidates like a resume online and offline.
IF they applied (asked for my number or vice versa) i'd review their application and do a background check.
Then i'd have phone interviews (convos) with them
Then i'd have face to face interviews (dates) with them
If after the 3rd face to face i don't like what i see or we don't connect. They get fired. lol

i have a list of questions i ask now. up front. about the woman. her family. etc etc. The woman im dating now. I know her family very well but i still ask questions. I observe. I'm paying attention.

I feel so alive right now.