But what holds me back is that "what if". What if he really doesnt want to leave deep down? Its there, in the back of my mind, a nagging thought that wont go away
I'm sorry sweetie, I'm not sure what the right answer is, only you can figure it out.
From many possible scenarios, there is one that you may want to consider.
What if you sat down with him and told him calmly and honestly how you feel and what kind of behavior you would expect from him to be able to rebuild your trust in him and rebuild your marriage. Suggest marriage counseling to help with that and give him a warning that it's not working for you the way it is.
See what his reaction is...that may tell you a lot
If he doesn't want to leave don't you think he would try to do anything to make changes?
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