I think you're doing fine. I know how hard it is to hold yourself back in situations like that. Every little smile or thank you seems like an indication that things may turn around but sometimes that's all they are - a smile and a thank you.
Once you totally accept that reality you'll start seeing things more clearly and that's where the work starts paying off.
It DOES pay off. If WAW does not turn around at least you YOURSELF are out of the fog, feeling good and ready to lead your life.
