I just read your threads, I am so sorry you find yourself in the position you are in. You will find support and acceptance here and also advice.
To answer your questions quickly and directly.
Originally Posted By: 4myboys
No pressure. But should I even try to open the lines of communication at this point?
No do not contact him unless you have to, this is hard I know....Patience. I have read that he is already sending you needless text messages. This sort of stuff will continue as he will be checking up on you. More on that later.
Let him come to you.
Originally Posted By: 4myboys
Do these feelings of love and patience mean I have forgiven him?
You will learn as time wears on that forgiveness is something you do for yourself first. Right now you are missing your H, and I do mean your H, not the alien currently inhabiting your H's body. Your feelings are completely normal.
True forgiveness feels different and is done so, not for what you may gain from your H but rather what you want to gain from yourself.
Hang in there...
Cheers
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