let just say it was used as self gradifcation. she has acused me of it in the past. but i never have. we have had didstan over that past year. she is very mad and frustrated with me. i never have been with anyone but her. she is very hard to read sometimes. there have been timems i the past were she steped out on me and i forgave her. even time were it apeared to me that she was and she said it wasnt and i chose to belive her. this time i leid to her. and i dont know how to fix the situation. i know what it looks like but as god as my witness i never cheated.
