Looking for advice, WAW

[looking2keepmywf]

Indeed so, Sandi. Way too high of a price. And, you're right that it needs to be a life long change - not a near term one. Time will tell, but I know I can do it.

We talked about her doings again last night and I asked her to come clean with me as to what's going on. She still maintains that there is no OM - just friends. And, TBH, I believe her. But, you can certainly call it an EA - or just her reaching out to her friends for support.

But, I understand what you are saying about the possibilities in the future, and to be careful. As much as I'd like to think that could happen - I just don't see it. Once she makes up her mind about something - it rarely, if ever changes. I guess her feelings towards me did, but it's doubtful they will ever change back.

And, that's OK because I have to let go and proceed ahead with this. Right now, it's just hard to get over these feelings that I have - what could I have done differently, where did I go wrong, and the general numbness that I have about the whole sitch. My feelings have changed from anger to sadness, and sometimes it is hard to stay focused on the tasks at hand.

I'm trying to work on one step at a time and take each day to accomplish things towards the goal of getting this all done. I guess this kind of thing is never easy - for anyone.