cheated on, lied to, and now I am moving on

[awest1217]

Today I am mad. Mad at H for allowing OW to even talk to S. She asked S if she could stay. That was not the arrangement. The agreement H and I made was that OW or any other dating partner would not be around S at all unless it was serious. OW knows if S said yes she could stay that H wouldn't tell her no leave. Also no matter what she will always put in H's head that I am the bad guy. If I say she can't be around S until it is serious, then it is that I am controlling, but if the opposite happened and I was allowing my BF (if that ever happens) to be around S then I would be horrible because I am allowing another man to be around S more than H. URGH!

If the roles were reversed and I had found a guy to date already, H would throw a fit if he was around S. H already doesn't like his brother and my brother around S...he definitely would not like another man so why is it ok for him to do it? I am more mad because H always holds me to a higher standard than himself or OW. They can be slime and that is ok, but I have to be an angel.

On top of that, he texts me last night to ask if I needed something from the store. I had said that I forgot lunchables for S, which S loves, when I got back from grocery shopping on Friday as H was dropping off S. It was nice of him, but I am still mad. It would be one thing if H didn't agree to it, but H agreed and would get furious if it happened the other way. And for H to insinuate that S was lying when S wasn't...URGH!!!!

I am just mad today, but I am sure I will be over it soon...I just wish my L would contact me so we could finish the D stuff. Oh and that is the other thing, H still hasn't signed up for the parenting course. It is a one day thing and he hasn't even filled out the paperwork to go because he stays at work 3 hours past the time the kids leave and the county city building is closed by then. Then just one day leave a little early so you can make it. Stay 2.5 hours or 2 hours and then leave so this can be done. I think the D will all be ready, but can't be finalized until H goes to this class and he won't sign up for it. URGH!