I think your health is the number one priority right now.

I hope you can leave her alone...at least until you can get to a doctor. The more she is informed of how much you have on her, the less it is helping you.....KWIM? Sweetie, you have just got to stop chopping your own head off.

I know you are so angry you could blow wide open, but it's hurting you...it apparently isn't affecting her very much, if she can put you off talking about what you've found. A normal person would run to your side as soon as they could get there and try to get things worked out, right? So, she doesn't fit that pattern! Your raw emotions doesn't seem to sway her. So the sooner you can start opperating from a calm & confident presence, the more affective you'll be.

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!