Looking for advice, WAW

[looking2keepmywf]

You may be right Sandi. Obviously, I have not made her happy.

What I do want to do is to work my butt off to try and fix our marriage. I certainly have been guilty of taking her for granted. Let me be clear - I am NOT happy about this situation, her EA/PA with OM (as everyone else sees as obvious).

I want to either have her and I both work on our marriage to see if we can fix what we have - or give her what she tells me she wants - which is to set her free.

I have really changed my actions in a big way since this has happened. I've been training (again) for another half marathon, I've been dieting, and have lost 12 lbs, I have taken a more active role in my son's daily activities and care than ever before.

I have changed, want to continue to change for the better regardless of whether I can make my marriage work.

Believe me when I say that I think about all of this every minute of every day. I actually had a good laugh a few days ago when my son said something pretty funny. It's the first time I have laughed in quite awhile.

Thanks for your honest feedback.