John, heed CG's advice.

Get an attorney and fast. Sounds like you have a sweet deal and the sooner it's in writing via L, the better for you.

I am proud of you for letting her go. It's so hard to do but the best thing.

You said:

I am just so tired of this. I have nothing left to fight for her anymore, and it is probably better that way

This reminds me of something I read once... "I feel like Rocky in the fifteenth round, beaten beyond recognition, when I realize, the only person I've been fighting for is...myself."

Go dark.

Take care of yourself.