"I dont hide my feelings oldtimer. I am just trying to control them not to affect every single moment of our current life."
Good point. Expressing these feelings to H may make the situation worse as the deep wounds may need more time to heal. But I think the pictures and e-mails are probably good to have seen. You now have a more accurate understanding of the extent of what took place and further deception has been pre-empted. This is also better than being in denial or jumping to wrong conclusions or always wondering what happened.
