Journaling - H was over to the house for a meeting on Friday, he was supposed to help me with a computer problem but that never even happened. We had a business meeting first and that turned into a major confrontation. It happened when I wanted to discuss revenue and the possibility that business will not recover and talk about Plan B - setting up a time limit when we call it quits if it doesn't improve...we have been loosing money for months.
H went bonkers....he is in total denial, doesn't even want to admit the possibility. With a normal business partner you should be able to discuss different scenarios and options and make a sound business decision....but H's thinking is not rational. He started to be so defensive and angry, leashing out at me and of course I defended myself...hence the fight. Many things were said on both sides that were more personal then business. We both ended up in tears.
It seems that if I just put on a smile and go along with his "fantasy" view of life and don't object to anything or raise any issues that he doesn't want to deal with, everything is OK...the moment I start to talk about tough issues I'm the bad guy.
I was so upset after the meeting that I cried and cried....that didn't happen to me for quite a while. Couldn't stop thinking about it and the things he said. And the anger at him is back, I thought that I was past that....I don't even want to talk to him now.....need space....didn't return any of his emails all weekend.
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
