Masochistically, once the kids filled in the blanks on his name, I naturally had to consult The Great Gazoogle -- yep, that's about right. CEO here, CFO there, senior venture capitalist over there, about a zillion boards of directors, good public works (national trusts for this and that).
And he's over 6-foot tall. (STBX always said she wanted a tall man, unlike SP himself, so she would feel daintier by comparison.)
The bastard of it is that I have every reason to believe he's a perfectly splendid fellow.
But I'm so mental right now that I'm trying to concoct any possible way of becoming a millionaire venture capitalist myself, just to show her. Hah!
(Of course, not being able to count beyond the number of digits on my hands and feet will surely be a complicating factor in that plan....)
She was always into money, was STBX, and my presumptive lack of "ambition" -- which was really a back-handed way of criticizing my career choice -- was among the leading causes (blames) for the D.
Oh -- he's published a book, too. So it's not what I do, per se, that was so terrible -- it's having done it without being independently wealthy that was among the great character flaws.
I'm really, really afraid that as they age, Themselves are going to compare my relative (lack of) wealth endowment, and the way they live with me, to STBX and whomever she happens to be with at the time -- and I will always come up short.
So this is like the gift that will just keep on giving (a la Gypsy's former spouse and his rather distasteful breeding choice of late).
I had a long talk with Miss Someone about this. Was STBX always that superficial? Did she really love me so...thinly? And did I love her so much that I just overlooked it? Or is this some artifact of MLC and etc.?
Miss Someone once blurted out, "God, she was totally the wrong woman for you!" At the time, I thought it was just a sympathy vote -- but what if that's right? Did I squander what little I have to offer on someone who, in a sense, really didn't deserve it? Criminy, that's a depressing proposition.
I know, I know, it doesn't matter, all perception, script, yada-yada, etc., etc.
But come on -- tell me you haven't thought the same things from time-to-time, unproductive though it may be.
On the other hand, he has far less hair than SP Himself. So I got that going for me. Which is nice.
