Piano, hi! Things on my end have been pretty great. H asked om a "date" last night.heehe
He been very helpful with the baby. Much more affectionate in terms hugging amd kissing. We are starting MC in october and both IC as well. I'll giv you brief points, I'm half asleep as I am typin.
+ we both said we are scared but H said only bcits the unknown not bc he doesn't think we will work. + said he will dedicate his life to repairing our M + talks about moving back hom but I suggested and he agreed, we wait and see what the MC suggests. Also I basically said unless you come back and sleep in OUR bed, and as my husband only, I don't think you should rush back. +we basically are dating! Kind of fun +lots of future talk +my sister is getting married in the caribbean in the spring, H was invited, and booked the trip for me, himself and bub! (Haha lve the word piano, so I'm borrowing it ) +basically says he felt distant and withdrawn he thinks due to school and studies, having isolated himself from everything to be a better student. +says he wants moe children and wants to start living the life he and I always dreamed of. + baby's christening is scheduled for oct 10 and H said he is happy our families will see us together + told me ILY. Said his feelings are growing and knoWs someday he will love me more than ever did + we talked about how our old M was just that... OLD. And that we are starting from scratch... Building new dreams. +there are times I wish I could just snap my fingers and it would be 100% back to normal, but I understand its a long process. + when H comes up to me and wraps his arms around me and hugs me, it feels like my old H stepped off his spaceship and came back to reality.
One thing is that we both have been very honest about our feelings, the good, the bad, even the ugly ones. H answers a lot of my questions, and says he is very sad and hurt by what he did and how he left, and wished he stayed. Says that why he feels IC would be good for him, so he learns to deal with pressure and the ups and downs of marriage. Funny enough, he remembers a lot of the things I've said along the way about Ms and how they are fixable and the stages of M etc. So we're taking baby steps. And it feels good.
Sorry I haven't been around much I do read all of your threads still jusst that by th time I read and catch up I have no time to post. Will try though. Baby is beautiful anf happy and is eating and sleeps throu the nigh thank God!
I feel happy. Happier than I did for a long time. I am very realistic of the long hard journey that is ahead for me, but it is so worth it!
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