Not sure where to start or end, WAW - #2

[john28]

DSH - The torment had to end. I had to stop it before I went insane. I do not consider those steps backwards towards the end. I made peace with my W, let her go, then resolved everything monetarily and emotionally with one magic bullet. This has been over 4 months in the making, and I just could not take this anymore. The only way I could let go was to do it by ripping the bandaid off. Letting it bleed out with L's would have been pointless. I'm at peace with the negotiations we have made. Not only am I at peace, but it was the right thing to do. On my car ride back I looked deep - the only reason I was going to get L's involved and screw her was because I hadn't let go and was hoping that she'd come back to me if I threatened her or hurt her. Simply threatening that on Friday had her broken and begging to come home. That's not what I want. That's not what a good man does.