Stepping out and Stepping UP!

[cagzmom]

some days i get so lonely. others i a ok.
i miss him still.... wondering when it will change.
i miss being married and not having to do this single thing. i dont mind it ... but i liked marriage.

my children are getting older....
where will i be in 4 years when my little one is 18 and getting ready to go away? what will become of me?

i get teased at work.. they tell me i am going to be the "cat lady.." the single old lady that lives alone and has tons of cats. first - i am NOT a cat person -- i have 2 dogs (ha!) but the alone part.... i just wonder.

not feeling sad, but i am a bit melancholy.

so much on my mind - so much i want to write -- but it is too soon. too soon for my kids and too soon for me.