My New LBS Reality

[irishblessings]

Day is coming to an end - dinner with friend. Trip to bookstore. Good night overall. I'm trying to take everyone's advice and stop thinking of H. I'm getting better at this - but still have a ways to go.

Monday I start the couch to 5k program / D and I are running 5k at Thanksgiving.

I am trying to refocus on living in the moment and not projecting. Praying a lot and resting.

[dl443322]

Atta girl - now you're talkin'. Go easy on yourself on a timeline. One day at a time.

Good for you and d that you're running a 5K.

Keep the focus on you. Let h blow in the wind and figure it all out on his own.

It's IB's time.

You can do this. I have no doubt.

[irishblessings]

Good morning Board! Rainy, cloudy day here. Not bad cuz I am heading to laundromat for about 6 loads of laundry. Dryer died and before I buy another one I'm trying to reconfigure an unused bathroom into a laundry room. Need to find a handyman! Rest of the day planning to stop by my office at work and get it together - then come home and get my home office, bedroom and basement in order. Tomorrow weather supposed to be nice so I'd like to be outside. I was running around this morning helping a young pregnant friend of mine do some errands and I actually started dreaming a bit about what THINGS I'd like to have. Like a pontoon boat, cottage on water somewhere, Audi SUV, - great nice THINGS. I've always been a second-hand person - never really anything new or expensive. Always low standards for myself -high standards for everyone else. Doesn't matter whether I ever get these things or not - just nice to dream a bit. But then - I took it one step further - what if I had my life in such a great place that someone might feel privileged to be with me instead of me always feeling grateful for anyone wanting to be with me??? Huh....some breakthrough thoughts here??? I hope this comes across correctly and not arrogantly or snobbishly. Just some different thinking going on:)
Will check in later - hope everyone has a great day!!

[irishblessings]

Not sure what I was thinking....moved bedroom furniture and office furniture myself. Did all the laundry at the laundromat myself. I must think I am 18!! My back and abs are not!!

Needed to do these things. Set myself up for success. Need to give myself a break when I don't accomplish EVERYTHING on my list. S is spending night at friend's house / D is gone also. Another night alone - but I'm ok. I was thinking how H and I used to love these times when the kids all had plans and we had the house all to ourselves. Great moments - thinking about what could be or what was coming up in the near future. Oh well - God has other plans for us right now.

[punkin]

Irish,

Sounds like you had a full day. You also sound much stronger and self assured than I think I have every heard you sound. You go girl! When you get through at your house, you can come do mine.
The grands destroyed it!

[irishblessings]

These dogs are destroying mine - but I keep telling myself that it's temporary = why can't I tell myself the same thing about EVERYTHING in my life:)

I have to admit though - I'm EXHAUSTED!! But at least not emotional exhaustion - just physical:)

[ericmsant2]

IB -

Can you do my laundry - just kidding

Your doing better than you think. Step back for a second and look at what YOU have accomplished!

Your doing it IB...you really are. Day by day, step by step.

As for thinking about your H....this will happen and it does get better if YOU allow it too.

IB - i noticed that you mentioned 2nd hard stuff. It appears that you are not the type that define youself by material possessions - that is a very nice quality to have.

IB - you should be thinking about things that YOU want.

Your doing well...keep praying...God does answer - in all cases his answer is his will.

God Bless
Eric

[irishblessings]

Thanks Eric - definitely keeping the prayers up. I have to follow what ever it is he has planned.

H has contacted kids and has no idea what is going on in their lives - they then let me know and share how upset they are. I keep trying to move them forward - focus on yourself - etc. - basically just keeping them focused on themselves. crazy!

[ericmsant2]

IB

That is all you can do.

BTW - thanks for the pic comments on the alt.

H has contacted kids and has no idea what is going on in their lives

not your problem iB. Trying to fix the R between your H and your kids is really not going to help anyone. We all need to understand that WE are all responsible for our actions.

God Bless,

ERic

[irishblessings]

Today - slept in / missed mass but read the scripture readings. Today's gospel - the prodigal son:) Good story for standers:)

Took S out to breakfast to his fave place / little unsettling because saw a lot of people who know our family. First time to be in "public" on our own - S was a little nervous l- but we smiled, laughed and had a nice time. Had my wedding rings on - because legally I am still married.

Came home - pulled weeds for an hour (I must think I am 18 - this work is physically killing me / but it's good for me.

Now getting ready to do some shopping for the week and enjoy the day before the work week begins again.

Sounds like I'm getting a life:)