What am I supposed to do???

[Tay Tay]

KellBell0820-Thank you for the encouragement. I need something to keep me busy. I feel like I am so angry I am going to bust open these days.

Okay I am being honest because I want you all to know about my strengths as well as my weaknesses. My daughter 11 years old woke up Tuesday night with a bad dream. She began to cry and said that she wanted to call her dad. Now my oldest daughter throughout this whole situation has acted like she has not cared at all. So when she asked could she call her dad I asked was she sure. She said yes I need my daddy. So I call his number and he did not answer as usual. My daughter left him a voicemail crying and saying that she missed him and to please come home. She told him how scared she feels since he has left. She told him I know you don't love Mommy anymore but can you come back for us. She told him how hurt they are that they have not seen him. She just really poured out her heart on the phone.

So 2 days went by and I realized that my husband had not called back. So I called him and asked him if he had gotten her voicemail. He said yeah. I said and you did not call to talk to her. He said no I have been busy. I went absolutely off. I asked him what kind of man are you that you don't answer your kids phone calls and they call crying. So I told him that if he did not want to come see them then I will bring them to his job when he gets off to see them. He said not to do that because the OW picks him up. I told him she knows that you have 4 kids. I asked him if she had asked to meet them yet and he said no. I told him then great it will be a great time for her to meet them. I was just fussing and cussing at him and I could not stop. He told me he would be over to see the kids today (Saturday) and he has not come yet again. I sent him 2 or 3 very nasty emails. I know that I should have controlled my anger. I have been holding it in for so long I just busted and let it all out. I wish there was a law to make parents see there kids but I know there is not. I don't want him to do what he doesn't want to do. I am fine until one of the kids start crying and asking questions.