I am sure it is normal to feel like I do but I want to make sure and see what you all might have to say about making me feel better.
At times I literally ache - my whole body just hurts. I have no appetite and this is sooooooo not me. I feel like the world is on my shoulders. I get very mad...then desperately sad. I feel alone. I feel scared. I feel confused. I think I have had a least one anxiety attack....I physically begin shaking and my mind races with every bad thought you could imagine. I can't focus on anything but my relationship. When husband is gone during the week I can't think about anything but what he is doing or who he is with. I am obsessed with my phone/email. In case he calls.
All this makes me seem pathetic and weak. Rarely, I will have the feeling of strength or calmness. Everybody that knows (which is only 3 people) keep telling me I am a very strong and wise person. But, I don't feel like it.
Hang in there!
This will pass.
TRY/WILL yourself to do something other than dwelling on it.
No one and no poster will be able to take away these feelings. YOU have to fight through it.
I found the more I'd write out my frustrations here helped though. If you don't want to write here then go buy a journal and run out of ink. It helped me a lot when I felt like you did.
