WAW left on Independence Day and not communicating

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I feel like there is no chance to save the M if my W does not move.

No you don't feel that. You feel hopeless maybe. You think there is no chance to save your marriage if your W doesn't move.

Communication lecture over now.
What matters is that you are taking time to enjoy life and working on making your life better.

You can't put that on-hold for some event in the future that may or may not happen. You deal with the hand you have been dealt, and then you set out seeing if you can improve things generally in your life.

Start making a list of 10 things that make you feel grateful. Do this every day until life starts gettin better. If you don't have a fitness routine, establish one.